Determined

Last night, Hubs had a class at the fire department at 6PM that lasted til about 9:30PM.  That meant that he wasn't coming home between that and work.  And I had to go to the grocery store.  And I wasn't going to "cook" supper for just me.  (I had a bowl of grits and a Toaster Strudel by the way, plus some Blue Bell Birthday Cake ice cream later.  That's a whole 'nother story.)  So I went home, ate supper, piddled on the computer while watching Monday's episode of Revolution onDemand and Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog on the CW (never thought that would ever be on TV).  And somewhere during this, I realized that I hadn't blogged since April.  So I decided that I was determined to write a blog post today.

So while I was in the shower last night, instead of reading the French translations on the back of my shampoo bottle for the millionth time, I carefully planned (meaning randomly thought about) what I was going to write for the next few posts.  I went through pictures in my mind that I need to post, pictures that I need to take, and words I want to say.  I eventually decided that an explanation was in order.

There are a number of things that I could legitimately blame my absence on.  I could say that I've been too busy, had better things to do at home than play on the computer.  I could say that since taking my new job, I have a greater feeling of self-worth that makes me not constantly turn to my blog and others' opinions of me.  I could say that I've just been lazy.  All of those are at least part of the truth. 

But the biggest reason that I haven't blogged is probably the overarching reason for all of the excuses above.  The truth is that for the past 27 weeks, I've had what can biologically be defined as a parasite.  It sucks up my nutrients, makes me tired, continually grows and thrives within my body, and I technically get no benefit from it.  But in just another 3 months or so, it will change my life.  It will make me and Hubs probably the happiest we've ever been together (that is, if it hasn't already.)  I know that it has tickled our parents and siblings. 

If you haven't figured it out, I'm pregnant!  I'm fulfilling one of the biggest dreams that I've had since I was a kid myself.

Ok, so it may seem a little inappropriate to call my baby a parasite.  But I'm also the girl who kind of enjoys funerals because I get to see friends and family, then I break down afterwards.  It also kind of grosses my brother out when I call the baby a parasite. 

There will be more stories to follow of the first and second trimesters.  Some with weeks attatched to them, most without.  I haven't been a "good mommy" and written down everything that comes to mind about this "magical time."  But neither did my Mama, and I don't think I'm any worse for the wear.  There will be pictures.  Pictures of belly, studio-turned-nursery, projects for our little Dumplin', and all the likes of that.  And I'm cramming 6 months of all the "interesting" things that have happened into just 3 months of blogging.  As if I needed to add anything to my to-do lists here lately!

Anyway, Josiah David, you are going to be one loved little boy, with one crazy Mama!